Some days I wake up wanting to shout, “Fuck you world for taking my mum and dad!” Other days I wake up crying like it’s been a crappy nightmare. But now I’m waking up most mornings with a smile thinking about how lucky I am to have had the best mum and dad anyone could have and I have the most wonderful memories as a gift! (Sorry for swearing!)
If someone had said to me 5 years ago that in 5 years, mum & dad would have passed away, I will become self employed and I will move away from the village that I’ve always lived in, I would have probably laughed!
But it all happened. A year to the day when I visited mum in that ward in hospital, surprised to see her deterioration from 4 hours earlier. Mum’s health had deteriorated after dad passed away.
It’s been a successful year seeing and experiencing my business grow.
It’s been bloody tough, tough without mum. Emotionally, I’ve been angry, tearful, breathless, etc. She’s left a massive hole in my life that I can’t fill! But I’ve been determined not to bombard social media with photographs of mum because I’m very private and Mum was the same and to me, well, it’s just not me!
Thanks to my amazing partner and my little dog for showing me lots of love, continued love, especially today and thanks to my friends and family for your great amount of love.
Cheers to Mum & Dad for bringing me up and the happy memories I now have of them and with them.
Ray xxx
Ps. Mum loved flowers and custard creams like me!
